The Burden of Judgment

The news was incredibly interesting.  There was a porn star, there was a President and then there was a tremendous amount of drama.  Like a deer in the headlight, I found myself glued to the television, watching this drama unfold.  The small part of me was practically wringing my hands back and forth in delight, so overjoyed by the viciousness of the “I told you so,” I wanted to unleash on all of my friends who voted for this particular President.  Then I remembered. I remembered that I am a co-creator of my experience. I remembered that there was no world “out there” there was only my point of focus and present time. I remembered that my judgement about another person was always an expression of the judgement I hold about myself that I do not want to own.  But, most importantly, I remembered that I wanted to be at peace.

It is easy to get caught up in the drama in the world.  The one thing that I know is you cannot pretend the world is not happening.  A Course in Miracles says that you must look upon the world of illusions in order to dispel them.  So, you must look. But, if what you are looking at is not love and you agree with it, then you are agreeing with an illusion.  Why does this matter? The Course says “ideas leave not their source.” What this means is, if you see something outside of yourself, something that makes you angry, something that makes you believe in judgement and shame, it is really your own judgement and shame that you are holding.  My gleeful “aha” about the drama unfolding was really an opportunity. It was an opportunity for me to forgive myself. Because I do not want to look at my own judgment and shame, I threw it out onto a porn star and a President. How do I forgive myself? I do it by forgiving them.

Ugh.  That is always my next thought. “I don’t wanna.”  Of course I do not want to forgive them. I can find plenty of people to agree with me.  They might say, “But, you did sleep with her and then pay her hush money to be quiet.” Well, if you are perfect then go ahead and throw that stone.  But, chances are, there is something you feel guilty or uncomfortable about. It is just so much easier to focus on someone else than to consider your own conscience.  

The great news about forgiving them is I actually start to feel better.  It is not because I am so holy, or so spiritual that I feel better. It is because my own guilt is heavy in my energy system.  All we hold onto weighs us down. The same part of us that yearns to be “better than” hides from the feeling of “less than.” Our negative emotions sit like an anchor in our energy stream, making it take much more effort to go much less distance.  When we offer another a blessing, we are blessed in turn. When I give them a break, I become more happy and at peace.

There is much drama unfolding in the world now.  I am not suggesting that you pretend it is not occurring.  But, instead, use the drama to remember that we are all one.  Whatever you hold against another is something that you allow to hold you back.  This does not mean that you need to like everyone else, have them all for dinner and become best friends.  What it means is that you make the decision to choose to focus on love and forgiveness over fear and guilt.